Need prayer

I am planning to swim laps today. My self-consciousness gets in the way of living my life so often. I have bare spots on my head and no swim cap. I have them covered with fill in powder, but once my hair becomes wet, people will be able to tell that there's no hair there. I need to start this. I plan on taking my daughter on a snorkeling trip when she graduates college in a month and have to get my breathing stronger so I can keep up with her. Ha ha. I also have a lot of loose skin because I had gastric sleeve surgery a year and a half ago and lost 60 lbs pretty quickly. But this is something I have to do to get back in shape. I'm still 40 lbs overweight (33%BMI) but have been overweight all my life so its okay. I don't need to achieve perfection although this is something I have to keep telling myself. At least I was able to get off the blood pressure and cholesterol medication. My Dad was very perfectionistic. He's deceased for over 40 yrs now of heart failure after a business trip. I still get PTSD when a tall authority figure looks at me, as though I'm going to be yelled at for something. I know I'm not a robot and there's always something I do wrong or not good enough....