nearly a year

well im finally coming up to a year on july the 17th god where has the time gone i feel really emotional tonight any sad song or clip of a film and out come the tears im so happyand mixed emotions inside, it does not seem like 5 minutes since i was sneaking around drinkingat work drinking the minute i woke up in the morning shaking cans to see if there is anything in them then stood outside the shop at 7am waiting to get served i physically could not stop drinking i'd fall asleep at work then wake up and start again god i was a mess my first meeting at AA i was pissed and many more then one day july the 17th i saw a friend i said to her do i look rough she replied no you look fine i'd had 12 cans im not bragging it was the truth and i felt fine i went the rest of the afternoon without a drink i thought when i get of the bus on the way home i'll get some beer and go to a meeting but when i woke up on the bus i thought god help me ive had enough and well to this day im sober ive met some lovely people on here i struggle at times but it passes we all have different problems but hey where all here for help and support i love you all god bless everyone of you XXMARKYXX