nada strength

I dont have a lot of strength the past few days. I feel exausted, even though my sleep patterns seem no different than usual. I think emotionally and physically I'm just buggered.
I find I'm missing my mum. Despite knowing what she's been doing and don't like some of her choices etc. She did come over today, but left before I could say hello.
I havent seen my sister since last night either, because she's out at a friends house. I'm afraid she's at her boyfrienfd house, as odd as that sounds. Despite the fact he called me a cunt last night, over some stupid facebook misunderstanding. Sounds stupid, but the use of smiley's really can save your ass when it comes to online conversation.
She's such a beautiful, smart girl but her self esteem is totally lowand she's fallen for a jackass.
Dad's home, which I think has added to the whole feeling miserable thing. I wanna stay positive but I feel like being selfish right now... I think I deserve it. I'm pretty sure I do. I think I've built up enough frequent possitive thinking points to warrent me some time to wallow in self pity.
I want to growl at everyone right now, and I cant stand anyone either. I want tl be left alone, and usually that's not me at all! I thrive off of other peoples company, usually I'm a very happy, and smiley person and I feel like lately I'm loosing myself.
Waaaah at me.