my ugly sis
I went to my sis house warming party, eveything was going good till she yells, fu....g I told you not yet. All I asked DC her was to out out some food. Her room mate just looked at her. I didnt do anything.god i just wanted to go home. I try so hard to show my love to her. I bought her some bars stools, some towels for her kitchen , a tea cup an pot, shot glass's from our great grandpa. I just wanted to crawl in a a hole. She is my little sis. I havnt done anything g to her. I went home and cut myself at 3 am. I feel like a piece of c sh.. worthless, no good. When we left the party her room mate even hugged me so tight. She new i didnt deserve that. Everyone at the party was drinking except me , my son, and husband. I didnt tellhim about it till we were at home. She makes me every fill like I am the worst. I feel like cutting agian, and my head hurts from crying. Why do I ware my heart on my sleve. I can take anyone being angery at me ever. I try to make it right. I am justt a door matt for someone to wipge thier dirty feet on. I dont want to see her for a long time. She is such a ass. Why do i want to cut so much lately. I am so tired of this.
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I think you just care a little to much a little to deaply for your owen good .....your sister is disrespecting you ....hurting your heart ....causing you to .feel your depreshion more ...strongly ...cutting is not going to help ...to me cutting is ..crying taken to the max because it isent just ters falling it is your life\'s blood ..falling .....you can\'t cry any harder .....you are going to have ..to set up some safe gards .for your self ware your sister is concerened ......she is not willing to .treT you with respect ..she is toxic to you ....when we are depresed toxic people ...are very hard on us ...especualy family members ..but ..we need to look after out selves .......I was in a situation ..ware I was always inbetween fixing everything untill I ran into somthing i couldent fix and everything fell apart ......some years ago my doctor told me that if I ever wanted to get better that I had to be number one ..and my h number two and the rest DIDENT count ....and it worked .....so ..you have to be number one ...you know who needs to be number two ..and that sister doesent count .......we have to limit the time we spend with toxic people even if they are family ..and tell them they need to treat you with respect or they can leave or you will leave ....they will Eather come around or they won\'t ..........but you need to look after your self.....I keep you in my prayers ....take care ..God bless