~~~My Thoughts for The Day~~~

Well this past week came out pretty good i actually was given some very good news the other day at the doctors office during my visit my CD4 count is now up to 801 from 368, and my VL is now down to 132,000 from over 600,000, since starting my meds in march things have really gotten alot better  with my meds minus dealing with a rash which i think the prednisone might of caused from being on it for so long but other then that i am doing pretty good, i am sticking to my nutritional plan but have been pretty food smart long before my diagnosis so im paying closer attention to the things i need to do to keep my health    good and to keep my mood as positive as i can by getting outdoors and enjoy fishing or just working in my flower beds or keeping my mind in a positive state as much as possible i try to avoid all negative people in my life and stress i try to stay away from but i know i cant avoid all of it ,when i start to feel myself getting depressed i remember others who are less fortunate  and i try to say a prayer for them and hold my head up and go on with life .
Long before i was ever diagnosed i was a pretty upbeat person easy going and layed back and not to much got to me i have been on here a few mnths now and have done alot of reading on many different sites or group discussions i have joined.One of the many things i have learned is not only could i have it alot worse then others but i see alot of people dealing with alot more things then i might be currently and i pray and thank God for the the blessings he has given me in allowing me to wake up every morning and enjoy the day .
Im learning alot of things now later in life i wish i had the sense to learn as a child, i do not take things for granted like i used to , i have learned to live with the way my life is and thank God everyday for allowing me to be a part of this life he created for me.One of the many lessons i have learned is not to jump to conclusions so fast for when i was first Diagnosed  with HIV i actually found myself blaming God and comming up with excuses left and right as to why is this happening to me etc and in the end one thing i now know is its not God's fault for what i am going thru he didnt give this thing to me i did it to myself somehow i am not sure 100% where i got it from but thats not important now the important thing is i am alive and doing alot better then what i was and i have my whole life ahead of me, i have seen some discussions on here about people wanting to give up and i tell them why give up this is the same thing as Cancer basically in alot of ways it is a Disease and one we have to come to terms with and cope with .
Never allow this Disease to get the upper hand u can sit around feeling     sorry for yourself or u can get up and do something positive about it which i did and have , not only do i speak now for others who are fighting this Disease but i have also educated myself more and more everyday for i want to do everything i can to remian as healthy as i can to enjoy the rest of my life as best i can .If i can see others doing it then i can do the same thing and be a happy person for theyre is nothing worse then sitting around crying and feeling sorry for myself for there is nothing i can do to change what i have to live with.
Some people ask me and have asked me does it hurt what u have and my reply is yes and no u could say depends on what u mean hurt  , like i tell them its not a hurt u can describe for theyre is alot of emotional u half to go thru to deal with this not just the emotional pain but the things this diesase causes and can do to your body so yes in some ways it does   for i do have good and bad days but i dont let it get to me if at all possible.
My main focus is to remain as good if not better then i used to be i know i can never be as healthy as i once was but that dont stop me from trying,I wanted to say i admire alot of the ones who i have read about on here and theyre strengths not just on th is DIsease but on alot of the other groups as well and may God Bless each and every one of them,and may u always enjoy the good things in Life Bright Blessings to All.