My thoughts

 Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend. I started to realize some automatic thoughts that I couldn't control and that have been part of me for a long time. Here they are: While looking to another girl: "She is so beautiful. I am not." When people get close to me I would keep asking: "What is this person looking?" I feel embarassed when people just look at me, even if it is for no reason. I feel uncomfortable with people looking at me. Sometimes my boyfriend couldn't listen what I was saying cause I kind of start to close myself when I am in public, even though I don't have problems and feel comfortable talking to him. Instead of being connected with myself in a secure way, I am worried about what people may be thinking. Even though I felt beautiful with the clothes I chose before going out, when I was out I was feeling insecure about it. I am trying not to focus on this thoughts in a negative way. Trying to observe. But I just would like to get rid of them. Has anyone being successful at any point?