My story-I miss Frank-It will be 4 years.

Hi.My name is Vader.On August 1st,2004 I received the call that changed my life.It was from my other brother who lives in New Jersey.He called to tell me that my older brother Frank died today.And then I lost it.Why Frank? Frank was the best friend that I had.We had our differences but during the years we were close.I felt closer to Frank then I did to my boyfriend,Brad and still do.Frank was 68 and was in a nursing home back in New Jersey.He was very,very ill and kept this from me.Now I do not have anyone to talk to.I feel so alone now.I do not feel complete.Brothers and Sisters tend to stick together.And Frank helped me after the death of my father in 1987.In fact,thats when all our problems began.My parents were married for 53 years and after his death,my mother began to act screwy.My mother began to have a severe drinking problem and began to get loaded almost everyday.She was from the old school.She would not get help.And she wasnt even paying the bills anymore.My mother also gambled.She was going to Atlantic City every day and she was always broke.Noone helped us.Noone believed me.Frank and I were at wits end.One day,I came home and Mother burnt our dinner.We had to go to Macdonalds.And Frank gave up his retirement to take care of my mother.In 1990,I met Jeff who was from Seattle.He was always talking about how great it was and I heard the word.Nirvana.Then In 1991.I heard the song that changed my life..Smells like Teen Spirit and his name was Kurt Donald Cobain and when I went to seattle,I knew.Frank will always be part of me and noone wants to help me now.