My story

My story. I dont really know if I've ever really told my whole story on here before. I got pregnant in June 2006. We werent trying but also not preventing it. We were so excited. I only knew for a little while before I started bleeding. I just a few days past 6 weeks. They said that bleeding in early pregnancy was normal as long as it wasnt bright red its nothing to worry about. Well it went from brown, to pink, to red. By that night I was in the hospital having my first miscarriage. They said it was just bad luck and 1/3 pregnancies end in early miscarriage. The doctor I was seeing wanted me to wait 6 months before trying again. So 6 months later we got pregnant again the first month trying. Again around 6 weeks I started bleeding they told me the same thing, some women bleed during pregnancy its fine. That evening I was at the hospital again having my second miscarriage. The doctors didnt care one bit. They were horrible to me. They again said its bad luck. Also "your young you still have plenty of time". This time my doctor said if I wanted to he could send me to a specialist they usually wont see you till you've had 3 miscarriages but he sent me anyways. I saw a few different ones and the only thing they could find was I had a genetic gene mutation called "MTHFR" It causes low folic acid and could cause blood clots. So they put me on folic acid and said next time I get pregnant they are going to have me take one baby asprin a day, plus progestron just to be on the safe side. I ended up waiting 6 months again and fell pregnant again in June 2007. Again the first month trying. This time I made it too around 8/9 weeks but from the first ultrasound we knew it wasnt growing right, it was too small. Everything was measuring 2wks smaller than it should have been. But we did get to see a heartbeat which was a good sign. I thought surly after seeing the heartbeat everything would be ok. I was so wrong! I was on the progestron, extra folic acid, and a baby asprin. The same day we saw the heartbeat I started bleeding and again we were at the hospital. This time with my third miscarriage. I knew that things were never going to be easy for me. I would never be able to enjoy a pregnancy like most women can. I couldnt get excited when I became pregnant again. We decided to take some time off after that one. I couldnt mentally or phicially handle another loss. Almost a year later I started going back to the specialist. He did a HSG and a laproscopy to make sure I didnt have anything blocking my tubes or any endometrosis and anything like that. We got pregnant again, this time it took 2 months to get pregnant. He wanted me on femera to help with my egg quality. I found out I was pregnant one day and the next I found out my levels were only 11 and I was going to be miscarrying again. By the next day I had completly lost everything. Almost like I wasnt pregnant at all. I wanted to take about a year or so off. I couldnt handle anymore loss, but my specialist said since it was so early that we could start trying again right away. He actually recommended we try again soon. He said we already have made it this far not to give up now. And that brings me to now. So far I am almost 8 weeks pregnant. I've had 2 ultrasound and everything looks great. "It" the baby is growing on track and has a good heartbeat. This is the first time everything has looked good. I did have a little pink a few days ago but he thinks it was just from an infection caused by my progestron. My next appointment is August 13th. So I'll know more then. Pray for me. If I have another miscarriage I might have to be commited somewhere. After my second miscarriage I had to be put on medication for depression. I'm fine as long as Im pregnant but soon as I loss it. It all comes rushing back. So pray all goes well this time. I cant wait to hold my beautiful little baby in my arms and never let it go.  Well gotta go Hugs and luv, Monica

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I am sorry you have gone through so much. I hope this is it for you and you deliver a happy healthy baby in what? March? Or the end of Feb? I will be praying for you.
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Thank you for sharing your story, I know that it can\'t be easy to re-hash your long journey to get to where you are today. What a strong person you are for not only sharing your story but for persevering and I know that in 9 months all of this struggle and suffering will have reason.
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what a touching story you have! it is very hard and you are so strong. I hete Drs. most of them just do the job by the book and that\'s it, they need to be more emotional, looking deeper! that\'s great we have this place to share and help. I\'m really thinking of you with all my heart! HUGS. take it easy lot\'s of water and rest and see some happy muvies :)
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Thank you for sharing your story with us. I am so sorry that you have had to suffer so many losses. I am praying that this is the time for you. It really is a shame that we have all lost the innocence of pregnancy and we can never have that mommy to be bliss that every other woman gets. But just try to remain positive and take a deep breath when it all starts to get to you. You will get through this one. When it starts to get overwhelming just close your eyes and try to think about how it is going to feel to hold that beautiful baby in your arms.
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Thank you so much for sharing your story.I too suffered.so I know your pain. I kept on like you and had my boy 1/3/08..It will happen believe sweetie and GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR SWEET BABIES..Take Care Michelle
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Thank you so much for sharing your story. You really do give me hope that I will have my day too. I know how hard it is to keep losing the pregnancies, and I know how you have to get to emotionally keep going. It\'s tough. You are so strong, and again, thanks for sharing your story of strength.
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THanks for sharing. You have been through so much. I pray for a safe and happy 9 months for you. Hugs