My Story

Well I can't remember when I started to feel like something wasn't right in our marriage. I think it was around christmas that I asked my husband why he was having ED, I told him that he needed to get it checked out , being 39 it's not normal to have that problem unless he is having a affair or something medically is wrong. Well he had severe back pain for two months and finally could not walk and had to go in the emergency room ( where he has worked in that hospital for 20 years, so everyone knows him) he was admitted and had to have back surgery.So anyways I went in to the hospital after he was admitted the next day and some girl called the room asking for him, I was like who is this "she said her name, I work with " P" everyone was in and out of that room because they all knew my husband so , I at the time didn't think anything of it.  I went home that night and heard his pager beeping .DDay was noted to me on 5/16. 13 pages noted on his pager.....I can't breath with out youI'm so worried , call meDamn YouI drove by the hospital and didn't see your truckI just tryied to call your room and you were on the phoneCan't remember all the rest of the BSThe very next morning I knew he would be nervous about surgery having never had it before so I went in at 6:30 ,and there is a girl at his bed side, I was like are you the one who has been calling my house and paging my husband and leaving messages onhis voice mail. I don't know if she was putting on a show or not but acted  very surprised and even wanted to shake my hand .The more I think about it I think it is her...( he says' that she is a friend of his for 12 years and it's nothiing. Well that night he told me that there was this girl that works there and they had coffee before work a few times and that she is marriend  and lives about one hour and 1/2 away who works as a contract nurse and she is crazy and has strong feelings for him..They have texted each other and had some phone contact..So home for 8 weeks , I was always wondering if he was contacting her, I even set up a tape recorder in the house , nothing on it. His work phone number should have had a change , but it didn't go thru.We recently had a vacation for 10 days out of state and there were two restricted calls a day on our home phone  ( thinking it was her)While on vacation I noticed restricted calls a few times ,( we have been in counseling and my husband keeps his phone visible and assesible to me now) So I waited to get his message and the voice said that she heard that he was sleeping with someone and that he was good in bed! I was so uset , but think that the message was intended for me because she knew that I was listening to his messages. That day my H called his IT department at work and had his number chaged immediatley, in which he said he felt a big lift off his chest ( I bet).Now we are trying to move forward , but I don't know if I can , it's very hard. What I find very hard to believe is as hard as she was attempting to get a hold of him on his cell and our home phone , I have asked if he has had any contact wioth her at work and He say's NO, I believe that is clear BS! So this is most of my story and a part of me wants to repair this marriage and a part of me wants to get out.... I'm glad that I found this site because it's just the support that I need.