My story

I was diagnosed with Addisons and Graves in the summer of 07. Truthfully, I had been feeling ill since jan of 07. I just did not want to come to grips with it....In Jan of 07 it seemed like all my hard work was paying off and even tho I did not have a lot of enegry, I could still get shit done. I was working on Ft. Belvoir full time,Finally had been granted my final clearance, bought a new car,dating my boyfriend of 5 years and we had or own place for 4 of those years. My days were all about getting as much as I could done. My boyfriend had bought me a boston terrier back in 04 too. Thank god for pets!! Then in June I was in my best friends wedding an everything started to go down hill. I went from 125 punds to 93 pounds in 2 months, I was throwing up blood,losing some hair,having weird skin rashes,joint pain and FATIGUE!!! I was doing horrible one am in Aug an my best friend came to my house an took me to the hospital. I was 3 hours away from my parents and my boyfriend had became angry because i was sick and could not function. He was never home anymore, he would not even go get me something to eat when he would get off of work. So...The docs admitted me and i was in the hospital for 4 weeks!!! I was in isolation as well. I will never forget when the doc came in and said..."How you made it this far I will never know" Samantha, you have Addison's Disease, Graves Disease, a mild heart condition from all the stress, and...kidney stones!"  He then explained what everything was and how i would have to take 5 pills a day for the rest of my life. Honestly...I think that I was in shock! I thought it would go away but it wont.... Now my life sucks....I had to go on LTD for my job, I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years because he did not want to date someone who got sick, My dog an i had to move back in with my parents (Have not lived there since 17 now 25), I had to leave the friends I had made an the house that I loved and...even tho I was hurt it was not easy to leave the boyfriend. It is a hard thing when you have to realize that someone you love no longer loves you. He could not love me when i was sick! To me that was the icing on the cake. Here I was so weak and helpless....home every day alone with no help! Even if I was not in love with someone anymore, I would never ever leave them while they were sick. I just wish I could get all the way over him now but I know it will take time.  He also wanted me to be a "June Clever" house wife and I was not having it. He wanted to get married when he could not even handle me being sick! How does that make sense??? He was never home and always working ( no, he was not cheating for those who are having that thought pop in there head, this girl is not stupid lol).  Women have come so far in this life and its no longer 1940.  I refuse to marry someone who thinks I am there house keeper or short order cook. If you marry someone then you should take care of each other. Things should be fair and both husband and wife should be treated as each others equal. Sure there will be fights and hard times but if the respect is there you can handle anything. Maybe I will change when I get older but I dont want to be a wife or mother anytime soon. I just want to get better and find out what makes me happy! My days feel like a waste...I have no energy! Friends have a hard time understanding how much energy it takes out of me just to meet them for lunch. I have pulled away from most of them because they just do not understand. I wish I knew how to pick myself up....I can not stand wasting my days.PS...I know there are a ton of spelling mistakes in here lol