my sincerest apologies!

        To everyone,     I know i haven't been in touch with you for a long time.and i am really sorry.i didn't mean to.but just to let you know i have not forgotten you and the least that i'd do is to leave this wonderful group!You have been a great suppport to me and it's my pleasure to stay  and be part of it no matter what happens. in fact you're one of the many reasons that i have to decide finally to buy my own computer!    My life has been somehow still in a floating mode,if u understand what i mean. i have been trying hard to live in a day to day basis. i left a job that i still love because i wanted something new to do and help me get my mind working in a positive way and somehow push me to still move on and believe that there is still something there for me.      I thank God i have found a new job which i think i like. good and supportive manager,good colleagues,small unit,less politics, more patient interaction...i think this is what i need at this point in time.away from any bad feelings for others because i had enough to deal with my personal life.so hopefully it will go well...     I still have those moments when i just wanted to cry because my chest is getting tight and i need to let it out.i don't know.... i'd like to think that i am somehow getting over the pain of grieving but when those time comes i just know really that i am getting no where BUT....on the other hand sometimes i think i wouldn't mind that actually if that pain will make me remember  all my love ones who had passed  away.i don't want to forget them!...so i guess i'll just CRY it out!until WHEN?...don't mind the rest of my life or until we meet again!     I MISS YOU ALL!!     Love ,    Cristy