My Screwed up Life

John Howard, Wow, who would have ever thought my life would have taken such a nose dive.  The girl who had everything, the man of her dreams, great kids, beautiful grandkids, house with the white picket fence, we were the family everyone envied.  The last of our 3 children would be graduating from College in December.  That in itself is a huge compliment.  We had it all and now I have the life no one wants, hell I don't even want it.  I would give up everything I own to get it  back.  I would even live on the streets it wouldn't matter just to be happy again.  So many emotions all over the place can't even think straight.  What did I do to deserve all this heartache.  I wouldn't want my worst enemy to have to go through what I am dealing with.  I am so confused about so many different things right now.  Need to remind myself to breathe never mind forget that.  Stop breathing and all your troubles are gone in an instant and they become someone else's.  God you and you alone know what I am dealing with right now and I ask that you carry the burden as I am turning it over to you.  I don't feel I can deal with it any longer. Honey I will see you soon. Love always, Andree'