my school counsellor

she is hopeless she gone comletely the wrong way with me im here worry about when to kill myself and she couldn't care less because she thinks im ok. im actually doubting her skills because i went to her room on thursday and firstly she didnt even talk to me thenwhen she did i said i was fine and she said "theres a funny quote in the italien job where fine means frightened,insecure..." blah blah talking about her half term i thought consellor were surposed to know when your lying. but whats really anoying is that she said like 4 word that were exactly how i was feeling and she dismissed them. how can she be so stupid. this is kind of a different subject when i cut in school i got my friend karen to clean me up but before she would do anything to stop me and then drag me straight to my counsellors office but now she couldn't care less. i don't want to tell tash because she got enough on her plate as it is. and emily my oldest friend will start crying, tell my counsellor who will think im kicking up because everyones worried about tash. but the truth is i felt like this since before tash was upset. i hate myself so much.