My Reason

I am so glad I signed up.I feel so crazy.I needed someone to talk to for so long.I feel like the more you want something ,the more it is in your face.I hate when people tell me to just relax and don't think about it so much when every unmarried teenager is getting pregnant around me!!!! I hate when pregnant women I know complain about things like their feet hurting.Ugh!! I would love to have MY feet hurt.I know God has a plan for us.I just wish it would include a baby.I would be such a great mom.I am the only one in my family who doesn't have a baby or one on the way.I am also the only one in my family who is married!!! I always knew I wanted to be a mom.Just not right away.I wanted to have fun and enjoy spending time with my husband .But when I got pregnant at 25 I thought that was a great age to start.Not to young  not to old.But once I lost it I couldn't get over it.Especially since now almost 5 years later I have never had the privilage of seeing those two lines again.I get so sad.Nobody knows how it feels.Nobody around me anyway.I am going to start to see the doctor again.And I am excited to see where it leads.I pray by the end of this year I will get my wish.