My Random Thoughts for Today....
hating myself today-though not really sure why- just everything in my life feels so lopsided and screwed up ! nothing i do ever seems to come out right and hard as i try still seems i am always messing things up or making myself into this idiot - which i probably am....... i wish i could go off alone and have some self reflection- but there's nowhere to go- no place where i can think- does anyone else ever feel this way ? just curious...... but i know - this too shall pass and i'll feel better- i think i really have too much time on my hands to think, i miss everything about who i "used " to be- before i had a broken heart, before i put myself out there and became a woman who wasn't shy and would date- maybe i should've stayed that way and not ever talked to men- they hurt me and i hurt them..... and the worst thing in this world are broken hearts- i know they are everywhere but dammit- why can't we just love and not hurt- why do we use people? why is there so much hurt in this world? i hate it ! just some of my random thoughts for the day......
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