my rainbow is dead
I just had a miscarriage today. I'm pretty upset. Scared, sad, angry...
all the old shit. I don't understand why this is happening to us. All I ever wanted is a family of my own and God seems intent to snatch away every chance I have at it. My whole body is aching, I just spent like 4 hours in the ER and yet again came home empty handed and with an empty uterus. Why do my children keep dying inside me?
My boyfriend was very supportive through this all. He sat with me through the whole ER thing and held my hand and cried and force fed me. But he's too scared to try again now, again.
I'm starting to think I will never have a child of my own in my arms. I hate my life right now.
Goodbye little rainbow, you're with your sister now.
all the old shit. I don't understand why this is happening to us. All I ever wanted is a family of my own and God seems intent to snatch away every chance I have at it. My whole body is aching, I just spent like 4 hours in the ER and yet again came home empty handed and with an empty uterus. Why do my children keep dying inside me?
My boyfriend was very supportive through this all. He sat with me through the whole ER thing and held my hand and cried and force fed me. But he's too scared to try again now, again.
I'm starting to think I will never have a child of my own in my arms. I hate my life right now.
Goodbye little rainbow, you're with your sister now.
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Oh honey! I am so sorry! My heart is with u! Crying with u! Fly high little rainbow angel. HUGS
I\'m so sorry, my every thought is with you...sending lots of hugs to you
I am so sorry. Losing a baby hurts so much. I feel your pain. Hugs, Corrine
I am so sorry.. stress plays a big role in pregnancy loss. I wish I had the words... but right now all I can say is I\'m here if you need me.
Many Hugs!!!
Nneka
I am so sorry. My heart aches for you. Why does this happen?! I will send some positive thoughts your way. ((Lots and lots of hugs))
I am so very sorry. No one should ever go through this. I know how you feel. My husband decided he no longer wants to try for a living child a few months ago, and I want one so very badly. I\'m sending a big huge and thoughts of peace for both of you. Give you and your boyfriend some time to heal.
Im so so so sorry love. I don\'t really know what else to say. Thoughts and prayers. Jessie
I\'m soo deeply sorry.
I\'m so sorry
The hurtful & painful part to deal with is when the peak of your excitement falls. I remember when I first saw a positive pregnancy test this year. I was overjoyed!! Then one of my twin girls was stillborn & now my surviving twin is in a coma. What an empty feeling so deep inside. I think it\'s a dark place nobody wants to be.
I still have FAITH IN GOD THAT HE WILL HAVE ASHLEY in my life as a testimony.
Hang in there honey. YOU WILL BE A MOMMY SOME DAY.!