my poem i wrote!!!

 

Trying To Conceive
Months apon months have passed,
a year gone now, awaiting for that special maricale.
To have one of my own, to grow inside me,
to feel the movement motions in my belly.
to see my babys face on the screen.
Wanting to feel the first kick or punch in my belly.
Waiting to hear that thump da bump, thump da bump heartbeat.
To know what it feels like to have morning sickness,
and those weird food craving's. Just to be a mommy!!
When your ttc and months apon months pass or
even year to years go bye
and nothing happens, you wonder why?
Why me? What am i doing wrong?
Is god punishing me? Am i ever gonna be a mom?
So many questions, so many thoughts.
They're all running threw my head,
like a wind meel apon a windy day.
All you ever want is answers,
answers to those questions you have.
You pray to god on a daily basses.
Praying to him to bless you,
bless you with this maricale.
You ask people for advice,
advice on things to do, or what can help.
You go to your doctor, ask him what you could do.
Mabey get put on meds, or even get test's done.
When you turn to your piers,
just to have someone to talk to.
It's always the same thing every one says.
"It will happen, give it time."
"Dont stress about it, or even think about it."
"Your trying to hard, dont try so hard."
"God knows your in pain, but when time is right he will bless you."
Or the best one ever, "I know how your feeling, just give it time."
But really do you honestly know how im feeling?
While you sit there saying this,
you have one or even two kids of your own.
What we (the people who are ttc, who's not haven any luck)
want to hear is positive things.
Not things that you always say.
We want to vent, we want to cry on your shoulder!
We want our miracle, or own child!
Thump da bump, thump da bump my heartbeat is still going.

Thump thump thump im still waiting!!