My Personal Update.

Hello everyone,

I am back and promised that I would be here periodically to let you know how I am doing. A lot has happened since my last entry: I have just turned 49 years young and in a Work program. No Girlfriend; I will get there when I am ready. I was in a bad place because of the last job I had worked at. I had to work despite catching a cold and my supervisor had warned me that if I had taken a day or week off, I wouldn't have gotten paid so I had to work until no longer working at that work site. I also worked at another site where the supervisor was a Eastern European and a racist. He hid his racist behavior but some co-workers saw right through him. On my last day at work, I was going to be stranded for the weekend on a floor that I had finished working on by my co-workers. I am thankful that a Security Guard was running the Frieght Elevator and picked me up. When he told me that my ex Supervisor and those around him are racist, I was mad as hell and glad that it was my last day there. If I was stranded on the top floor, I would have been mad as hell trapped for 2 whole days! That is what emotionally ate me up during the summer and it ruined it for me. 

During the Summer, I was angry and withdrew to sleeping late and not doing much work around the house. My sister didn't see what I had went through. In retrospect, I should have been more assertive and told her what was eating away at me. I am recovering emotionally from it. I also know that I have a choice in how I react to everything that I had endured this year and 14 years ago. I deserve to be happy and stop allowing the mistakes I have made 14 years ago to define me. For me, I am going to help myself because I deserve it and think about taking care of myself. 

I am better and decided to not go back there. It is time to move on anyway. That has what's been happening to me since the last entry. When I do write my next entry, I will be in a happier place and it won't be in the moment and temporary. Everyone deserves to have happiness in their life and I am no different. 

Until next then,

Be well.