MY PARENTS

I am in the struggle of my life. I lost my father July 18 2003. I went into a very deep and dark depression he was only 59 at the time my children where very young 2 yrs and my youngest was only 4 months. I lost out on a lot with my children. In September of 2015 I was finally getting out of my funk is what I used to call it. My dad was my everything. In September of 2015 I got very sick I really don't know much about September except for what people tell me. I was in a coma do to my medicine I was on. I fought for my life knowing I could not leave my family especially my mom i knew she would be devastated after i got out of the hospital I tried to spend as much time as I could with my family hoping to make up for lost times I had seemed to feel not as depressed. My Mom went into the hospital two days after thanksgiving I was very worried I prayed everyday hoping she would be ok but on December 19,2015 she lost her life do to her illness i feel so lost my mother was my best friend if ever there was a problem mom gave me her advice to this day I reach for the phone to call her to hear her say I love you but she is not there I have been fighting the depression but it is not seeming to work she was only 64 I don't understand why she couldn't fight harder I need her and miss her so much I honestly don't know what to do there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of her and cry I'm so lost