My own worst enemy

It seems that I have been complicating my life.  My ultimate goal has not been reached yet, but I can see it happening soon.  I can see that my life will be so boring someday.  Someday, I bet I will miss it.  It is like what I tell my mother about her retirement in a couple of years, "you are going to be so bored soon, you are going to go out of your mind." 
My first dissabilty payment came today.  I have been living on savings and my credit cards for quite a long time and my savings was running out.  I am glad that I did have so much savings.  I hate living from paycheck to paycheck(when I could work).  I had saved money for just this kind of contingency and here it is.  Maybe, I was kind of prepared, I will find out when the dust settles.