my own little world
well i finally got it to write in color, my lucky day, i want to just live in my own little world, i did not enjoy Thanksgiving, i didn't want to go to the family thing, i don't even like to go anywhere, jess has been out of school,and i have had fun,just her and me, i used to love holidays,now i hate them,i feel myself, sliding downhill, but there is really nothing i can do to stop it, i haven't did any christmas shopping, don't have much to spend this year, but there will always be something for my kids.
my pain is worse, i think it has to do with the colder weather, but i don't know, i guess i am just falling apart,but i am thankful for all that God has given me, a roof over my head,a afamily i love, and good parents.
i hope that all of you are doing as well as possible, and that you have a wonderul holiday season,, thinking of you all as usual, lots of love.
my pain is worse, i think it has to do with the colder weather, but i don't know, i guess i am just falling apart,but i am thankful for all that God has given me, a roof over my head,a afamily i love, and good parents.
i hope that all of you are doing as well as possible, and that you have a wonderul holiday season,, thinking of you all as usual, lots of love.
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You aren\'t alone in how you feel. I didn\'t even get dressed on Thanksgiving day and we are so broke I doubt we\'ll have much of a Christmas. It\'s just sad and depressing when you feel like crap and everyone is all jolly and want you to be also. Bah hum bug I say. I just want to get to the first of the year and be done with all this.
We don\'t celebrate Thanksgiving here, but I can imagine the stress it causes with Christmas just around the corner too, so you have to do it all over again. I think Thanksgiving is a superb idea, and for Christians, it should replace the Christmas celebrations, which are pagan anyway. Sorry you don\'t enjoy it though, I think it has something to do with our age! I tried to do normal shopping this afternoon after church, and I could not park my car in one supermarket car park, had to go straight out the exit again. I went to another German supermarket - Aldi\'s - I flippin HATE that shop.. the tills had long long queue\'s at them, what on earth do these half wits want all this rubbish for so early in the season.. Christmas has become a season of scoffin, boozing, and bad tempers... Glad we aint taking it with us when we leave this earth!.. lol
God bless. Love ya --- sending you soothing hugs.
Ruby, sorry to hear that you did not enjoy Thanksgiving. We went to Ethans girlfriends parents and had a really nice time. We were gone 5 hours and that was driving time. I realized a couple things, one is that I am a good cook and cooking comes easy for me. Some people really have a hard time cooking and it stresses them out. The other is that Cary and I have done an awesome job raising our kids, and we have kept our family together and close. I have done some Christmas shopping. I am dreading the wrapping, I did buy some pretty paper though. Cary says I worry to much about the wrapping paper. I am making my own tags. I have for along time, years now. I am nervous about Christmas, having surgery on the23rd means I have to have it all done ahead. Talk to you soon.