My old body- the older me.
( my reply in Fibro board today)
Sometimes I mourn the loss of my "old body" or should I say ... "young body" ... well ...almost always is more like it. When I looked in the mirror either at home or shopping ( eeek three way mirror) I was very happy with what I saw. Even so, I STILL got caught up in the.... "I * just* need to get rid of 5 more pounds" thing. STUPID! Built like an hour glass ... my boobs - 5 pounds off for that... and I thought that 130 pounds was too heavy. I wanted to weight 125pds --- my body didn't want to --- it was just fine...but my brain wanted to... Now I know better. I went from a size 10 to size 14 (basic guideline for comparison.) I know that its not about the size ( we all know how different manufacturers are with their sizing..) but I can tell in how I move and feel - that I am too heavy (for me.) Still hourglass shaped but fluffier all the way around. Most of all, I hate the way my clothes -- FIT-- ! They are the appropriate size, but my body doesn't feel at home. This piece tugs at this piece and that piece doesn't lay right.... how can my clothes be the right size; but continue to allow a permanent "weggie" when I am sitting down? There is a new Gym opening and its very close to my home. DH and I will be joining. Now that I have energy to walk out the car... I think I can start exercising at a slow and careful pace. I will keep my expectations low at first ... Im sure I can do better than that.
Sometimes I mourn the loss of my "old body" or should I say ... "young body" ... well ...almost always is more like it. When I looked in the mirror either at home or shopping ( eeek three way mirror) I was very happy with what I saw. Even so, I STILL got caught up in the.... "I * just* need to get rid of 5 more pounds" thing. STUPID! Built like an hour glass ... my boobs - 5 pounds off for that... and I thought that 130 pounds was too heavy. I wanted to weight 125pds --- my body didn't want to --- it was just fine...but my brain wanted to... Now I know better. I went from a size 10 to size 14 (basic guideline for comparison.) I know that its not about the size ( we all know how different manufacturers are with their sizing..) but I can tell in how I move and feel - that I am too heavy (for me.) Still hourglass shaped but fluffier all the way around. Most of all, I hate the way my clothes -- FIT-- ! They are the appropriate size, but my body doesn't feel at home. This piece tugs at this piece and that piece doesn't lay right.... how can my clothes be the right size; but continue to allow a permanent "weggie" when I am sitting down? There is a new Gym opening and its very close to my home. DH and I will be joining. Now that I have energy to walk out the car... I think I can start exercising at a slow and careful pace. I will keep my expectations low at first ... Im sure I can do better than that.
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Cheers!
that is great. my body is like a monster to me. I need to lose 150lbs. I can thank the doctors for all the nice meds that packed on the pounds over the years and myself for not advocating for myself. I don\'t know how I will ever do it. I not sure I can but I guess as you said I can try to take a small walk when I can. I know I don\'t eat much so eat healthy would probably be good. I wish all the luck. I am always where loose fitting clothes because everything that fits feels too tight and hurts my skin.