My obbsesion

So I am one week out from my first IUI and starting to fral out a little. I go on monday to see how i am responding to the meds but i am slowly loosing my grip on teh stay possitive attitude. i gues sit it is fear getting in. If i dont get pregnant this month i just dont know what i will do. I cant even contemplate  that. I am just asking the lord to let this month be my month. I hate the waiting and wondering. I just want o be pregnan is that so bad?