my newest symptom journal

Back in April I was put on anti psychotics once again. I was having very odd thoughts. Does anyone else get plagued with uncontrolled and unwanted mental images?! It's so weird. So the doctor tried Invega, and at first it worked, but then I fell into depression, isolation and this desire to not see anyone at all. So it was switched to Risperdal, which I have been on for about three weeks now. And about two days ago I started again with the depression. Early today I started feeling this slow and heaving fall until I reached depression. I slept all afternoon and I woke up with it all gone. Amazing, the ride of bipolar. I was the complete opposite by night fall. A little up, but I had strength and the ability to interact. Times like these I try really hard to strengthen my relationships with my friends. So they can see who I'm trying to be, who I want to be. I'd like everyone to see past my bipolar, however, I'd like to still be taken care of and understood during the times that I spin around again. Is that too much to ask for, I wonder unselfishly. My friends, I love them more than I can say- offbalance