my mother

i had the worse argument with my mother.  i just don't think she cares about me, at least that is how it seems.  i mean i know she loves me but she worries me about the things i just don't find important. it doesn't seem like she hears me until i am angry and yelling. at that point i feel guilty.
i yelled at her yesterday asking her why does she bother me with such small things, pretty much in a nut shell. she got quiet on me and i got more upset and hung up on her. she text me: i am so sorry. i love you. i never meant to let you down. 
i know i can be difficult b/c she spelled meant wrong and i focused on that for a moment, to myself. it's like i am trying to be perfect, but i feel like a failure. there is no gray/in between area for me.
i eventually got back on the phone with her. i talk to her like i am a lawyer - trying to pull the truth out of her. she told me that it's like damned if i do and damned if i don't with me to her. i think she is right. i am like that with most people.
i feel like a failure with her. she says things to me that makes me think i have disappointed her. when i ask her to explain or question her statements she says i misunderstood her. i don't know. she could be right. when most people are looking at me, staring, i think they are laughing at me.