My Mood has gone down again

I would like to always be in a state of calm, but of course that can not be. And my calm moments are now full with anxiety. I am so afraid! I don't want this course to be miserable, but I really don't know how I can stop it from not being so!I just feel so alone with my problem! Everytime I go to something like this, I am reminded of who I am and how different I am from all the them. I hate feeling an outcast! It makes you feel like your a leper. No one wants to go near you, because they think they'll catch it! Eventhough you can't catch it!I don't know, I'm probably just freaking out over nothing as usual, I just gotta think of the positive instead of the negative.