my mind is a tug boat in fog

As I sit here collecting my thoughts I find myself crying again..I have been crying every since I got home last night from work.  Doesnt surprize me for yesterday was an emotinal day about Scott. This is so hard for me I just sometimes think I cant cope with the scale of this nightmare. You no when they say "Keep ur enemeys close".  Well I have. Scott has 2 gf that I no of plus the mother of his children hes been with for 19 years. Well I contacted them yesterday and one of them is supporting him in jail..bingo!!thats the one I went after yesterday..Very nice lady..good job supporting 3 children and is in Love with my son..She no my stands about not being there for him this time, but man the news I got was the killer..LIFE for him. See my son is up for the 3rd strike against him and the courts are going for it..man I tell you my Faith is shaken..I just cant see the Lord doing this to us. but its out of my control..All I have is prayer. So if I can have DS pray for our family in this time off need. Pre trial is the 13th ( of all days ) and the TRIAL the 30th..still not sure if I want to attend.