My live in the beginning of 2015

i.m making a new years promise to myself to come here ofter and talk to people instead og isolating myself all the time so here goes...
i'm feeling very anxious , me daugther is getting her Confirmation service this april and my financal status is so bad i cant pay anything to hhelp my aunt wish this or give her a gift, my ex husband says he will pay and have me in it but i feel so helpless and feel like i'm betraying my daughter. the only thing we ( my ex and me) can do to help is pay for her dress and shoes. after i lost custedy to my aunt my finacal status has gone 300 dollars down and now i cant even pay my bank or my meds. i'm going to try to talk to socal servises if they can help but right now i'm not really hopefull about it :(
i'm in this program for mentally ill people and i'm trying to go once a week but that is difficult because of my social phobia and also no money for bus tickets.
i'm sorry for my negativity.....
but positive stuff is my daughter is in so much better status now loves school and has friends and is much happier there, they live in a small town on the country side. also my ex helps me all he can so i'm not alone. so it's not all bad