My lil sis pulled my heart strings..but in a GOOD way
I had dinner with my grandmother today. We havent spoken in years. Its a long story, but we just never really clicked. Anyhow, she read my sons obit in the paper and called and asked if I would have dinner with her. I hesitated but decided to go. She is not he nicest of people and I just hoped she would not be mean right now and have a lil sympathy after all I have been thru. On the way I prayed to God in the car. I prayed that this dinner would go okay and that she want mean and if she was mean, I prayed God for the strength not to straggle the living crap out of her. She never has said anything nice to me so when I got out of the car was very shocked when she said she liked how I have my hair and it looks nice. I was so shocked I think I forgot to say thank u. Dinner actualy went very well. She said she was very sad for me when she read the paper cause she lost a child also. I never knew that.She knew that I have been out of work mourning and physically healing from my son and handed me 1100.00 to pay my bills this month. I was stressing myself out so awful because of my son and how was I goin to make ends meet this month. It was like a weight had lifted off my shoulders. She made a sock monkey for Max and gave it to me. She did this without even knowing his nickname was "monkey " Max. How ironic is that?I told her I would put it on his memorial shelf with his pic. The evening actually went well.
After dinner my dad called to see how things went. I told him all that happened and he was happy she was nice. I have a 12 yr old sister and she wanted to talk to me. She is actualy one of those rare 12 yr olds that hasnt been compleatly corupted by the bad influences of this world and still has a sweet manner to her. She got on the phone and these were her words to me..............
" I just wanted to tell you that I love Max and miss him very much. When I started to cry at the hospital you told me that these thing happen in life and somehow we need to move on."..let me interupt.. I dont remember saying that but I dont forsee a 12 yr old pullin that one out of her hind end just to make me feel better. Guess I was trying so hard to be strong for my family I forgot to be strong for myself.My lil sis goes to a privaite catholic school and have prayer class everyday......Anyhow the rest of what she said to me..her words..........
" I just wanted to let you know that I pray for Max everyday and for you. Max sent me a message to give to you. He said that he doesnt want you to cry anymore. He doesnt like to see tears on your face and he wants you to know you dont have to cry cause he is okay in heaven. He likes his new home and is very happy there so you dont have to be sad anymore. He wants you to be happy again like you were happy when he was here still and he wants you to know he loves you and misses you just like you miss him but you dont have to cry anymore..okay?"
I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO glad this was over the phone cause the tears were just pourin down.Maybe my lil sis told me this to make me feel better or maybe in her heart she really believes Max sent her this message for me. I guess either way God prooved to me today that someone loves me enough to only want to see me happy again.
After dinner my dad called to see how things went. I told him all that happened and he was happy she was nice. I have a 12 yr old sister and she wanted to talk to me. She is actualy one of those rare 12 yr olds that hasnt been compleatly corupted by the bad influences of this world and still has a sweet manner to her. She got on the phone and these were her words to me..............
" I just wanted to tell you that I love Max and miss him very much. When I started to cry at the hospital you told me that these thing happen in life and somehow we need to move on."..let me interupt.. I dont remember saying that but I dont forsee a 12 yr old pullin that one out of her hind end just to make me feel better. Guess I was trying so hard to be strong for my family I forgot to be strong for myself.My lil sis goes to a privaite catholic school and have prayer class everyday......Anyhow the rest of what she said to me..her words..........
" I just wanted to let you know that I pray for Max everyday and for you. Max sent me a message to give to you. He said that he doesnt want you to cry anymore. He doesnt like to see tears on your face and he wants you to know you dont have to cry cause he is okay in heaven. He likes his new home and is very happy there so you dont have to be sad anymore. He wants you to be happy again like you were happy when he was here still and he wants you to know he loves you and misses you just like you miss him but you dont have to cry anymore..okay?"
I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO glad this was over the phone cause the tears were just pourin down.Maybe my lil sis told me this to make me feel better or maybe in her heart she really believes Max sent her this message for me. I guess either way God prooved to me today that someone loves me enough to only want to see me happy again.
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