My Life Summed Up in 2 Short Stories!
~PART 2~
Newly divorced I decided to go out on my own and for once stand on my own 2 feet for a change. :-) And I did!!! For awhile. I started really liking being single (even though I was still lonely inside) it had many perks. I spend many many many weekends out of town and at a girlfriends house I met through Msn Chat. We got along great.........until I met my new boyfriend. We dated 6 months and I got sick and tired of travelling almost an hour back and forth to see him. We decided to move in together. (I KNOW HUGE MISTAKE) but at the time I didn't care I was willing and looking at it as an adventure. He had 4 children and now I kinda had my own family........but there was one MAJOR FLAW IN MY PLAN..............his 2 oldest children hated my guts right from the beginning. (Not exaggerating either)
His 2 younger boys lived with their mother and we got them every weekend. :-) I was soooooo happy.........and yet really sad because the 2 oldest children couldn't stand me. They were 14 and 15 at the time. SO I knew all about going through the teen years blah blah blah........I loved them unconditionally but for the past 9 years they have done nothing but abuse me..............Here's a few examples of what I'm talking about...........
I remember one day going to his daughters place (now about 22) and her saying "Chel...my mom is my mom, Kimmy will always be my step mom and you will always be just my dads girlfriend"............. THAT CRUSHED MY HEART. She would constantly call her father over different things and yell in the phone at him regarding me and I would sit there and listen to it all..........ALL OF IT.
On one occassion the daughters mother called me and left me a NASTY message on the phone saying how I'll never amount to anything and I'm a loser that her daughter Amanda she don't like me infact she hates me,,,,,,,,,,,blah blah blah.......this went on for a few minutes.
During the entire 9 years NOT ONCE HAS MY FIANCE EVER COME TO MY SIDE AND PROTECTED MY HEART AND SPIRIT...........MY SPIRIT GOT CRUSHED and I've been in a depression ever since..............THERE'S TONS MORE TO WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON BUT MEHHHHHHHHHHHH TOOO MUCH TO WRITE.
I KNOW IN MY HEART I SHOULD END THINGS BETWEEN MIKE AND I NOW............BECAUSE IN A SENSE HE IS ALLOWING THIS ABUSE TO BE TAKING PLACE. I understand it has to be very difficult to stand up for the one you love when it deals with your children who are doing the abusing...............but I would do that for him in a heartbeat. In fact I have.One year my brother suggested I leave my 2 step sons at home so we could come for Christmas and I basically told him to go where the son doesn't shine. IF it wasn't for feeling guilty towards my mom who wanted everyone there I wouldn't have gone at all. But I definately STEPPED IN AND TOLD MY BROTHER OFF!! P.S. I'm mostly writing this to get it off my chest........if you have any remarks that are negative in nature...........please just don't bother...........I've been beaten up enough as it is..........and no I'm not a spoiled brat just tired of taking all this crap. Yes my fiance knows................I've talked or screamed rather til I'm blue in the face........... I'm just realizing that I truly think I made a mistake in chosing him as my partner. :-s
Newly divorced I decided to go out on my own and for once stand on my own 2 feet for a change. :-) And I did!!! For awhile. I started really liking being single (even though I was still lonely inside) it had many perks. I spend many many many weekends out of town and at a girlfriends house I met through Msn Chat. We got along great.........until I met my new boyfriend. We dated 6 months and I got sick and tired of travelling almost an hour back and forth to see him. We decided to move in together. (I KNOW HUGE MISTAKE) but at the time I didn't care I was willing and looking at it as an adventure. He had 4 children and now I kinda had my own family........but there was one MAJOR FLAW IN MY PLAN..............his 2 oldest children hated my guts right from the beginning. (Not exaggerating either)
His 2 younger boys lived with their mother and we got them every weekend. :-) I was soooooo happy.........and yet really sad because the 2 oldest children couldn't stand me. They were 14 and 15 at the time. SO I knew all about going through the teen years blah blah blah........I loved them unconditionally but for the past 9 years they have done nothing but abuse me..............Here's a few examples of what I'm talking about...........
I remember one day going to his daughters place (now about 22) and her saying "Chel...my mom is my mom, Kimmy will always be my step mom and you will always be just my dads girlfriend"............. THAT CRUSHED MY HEART. She would constantly call her father over different things and yell in the phone at him regarding me and I would sit there and listen to it all..........ALL OF IT.
On one occassion the daughters mother called me and left me a NASTY message on the phone saying how I'll never amount to anything and I'm a loser that her daughter Amanda she don't like me infact she hates me,,,,,,,,,,,blah blah blah.......this went on for a few minutes.
During the entire 9 years NOT ONCE HAS MY FIANCE EVER COME TO MY SIDE AND PROTECTED MY HEART AND SPIRIT...........MY SPIRIT GOT CRUSHED and I've been in a depression ever since..............THERE'S TONS MORE TO WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON BUT MEHHHHHHHHHHHH TOOO MUCH TO WRITE.
I KNOW IN MY HEART I SHOULD END THINGS BETWEEN MIKE AND I NOW............BECAUSE IN A SENSE HE IS ALLOWING THIS ABUSE TO BE TAKING PLACE. I understand it has to be very difficult to stand up for the one you love when it deals with your children who are doing the abusing...............but I would do that for him in a heartbeat. In fact I have.One year my brother suggested I leave my 2 step sons at home so we could come for Christmas and I basically told him to go where the son doesn't shine. IF it wasn't for feeling guilty towards my mom who wanted everyone there I wouldn't have gone at all. But I definately STEPPED IN AND TOLD MY BROTHER OFF!! P.S. I'm mostly writing this to get it off my chest........if you have any remarks that are negative in nature...........please just don't bother...........I've been beaten up enough as it is..........and no I'm not a spoiled brat just tired of taking all this crap. Yes my fiance knows................I've talked or screamed rather til I'm blue in the face........... I'm just realizing that I truly think I made a mistake in chosing him as my partner. :-s
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