My Life Stinks but is also Great

Hey everyone who is keeping up with my ramblings. First NO Tim has not been here in 3 weeks to pay me or get his mail. So on the 23rd I wrote him a letter, here it is:

Tim,

I  am very disappointed that not once but twice now you have not kept your word to me. You promised when you moved in and when you moved out that you would pay me and not leave me hanging yet you still have not made an effort to do it. You know the situation I am in and that I need that money and need to get meds that I have had to let go because I could not do it, unless you are lying to me that  you are working and making more than enough to make the payments then pay me off so that we can both move forward in our lives. I have already figured out you really do not want to even be friends with me as there again no effort is made. I honestly do not know what I did wrong to make it that you do not want me in your life at all but if that is what will make you happy so be it. Just please pay me the 695.00 and change your mailing address and come and get the mail that is sitting here and come February I will figure out my phone situation. Then you will not have to worry about me at all again. Pick a date and let me know when you will be here to get your mail and give me a payment of the 200.00 you promised each payday please. Please be a man and follow through on this.

Susie

Well of course I got no response from him at all. so next I sent him a text 3 days later, it said: Tim did you get th email i sent you the other day? I NEED to know if you are going to pay me or not because if not then I will have to take out a high interest loan so I can get caught back up. Also I really need for you to come and get your mail that is accumulating here. I also have the change of address card so you can fill it out here and I can give it to the post man that comes here and it will be done. PLEASE answer me in this so I know what to do. He did actually answer and all he said was I can start next week. I then answered back well I am unavailable on Monday evening and at least let me know when you are coming so I am sure to not make any plans. I got a big Nothing for a response. Figures right. I am so sick of this hanging over me but I will not let him off the hook for the money because that is what he is hoping for and he has already used and abused me enough he is not going to get away with living here for nothing for 6 months. He is burning so many bridges it is really sad that he does not realize what he is doing. He can not even able to see his grandsons anymore because he took the 30 yr old methhead out to their house. All I do know is I deserve better than this and will  not tolerate that in my life ever again. Even he goes back to how he was when he first moved in I know it will not last his life is going to be a continuous rollercoaster ride and I do not want a part of that in any way anymore.

I do have a male friend and we talk almost every night. I dated him in high school a few times and he called me one night and I told him that at this point in time I need a friend a very close and dear friend and he said no problem. He has never been a drinker so NO ALCOHOLISM to deal with for once in my life. He makes me laugh like I have never laughed before and we can talk about anything and everything. It so nice because there is no pressure in fact he will not even take me out for coffee until everything with Tim is over and he knows I am done with him for good. I really like that respects me like that and do not quite remember ever having anyone show me so much respect. So live here is slowly changing for the better but not fast enough for me. Hopefully WHEN Tim comes we can set up a schedule and get this done with for good. Yeah right I know in my dreams. Some day it will happen in God's time not mine. Just have to be patient which is not an easy thing for me to do.

Blessings and love to each of you my fellow warriors,

Susie