My Life Since 2009
I just moved to Miami, FL two weeks ago to live with my youngest daughter who has many health problems since having a gastric bypass. Life threatening problems. Her new husband and her 4 boys make up their family and all are very happy to have me here. I am too after two terrible winters in NY state. My oldest daughter lives downstairs with my granddaughter. But, my middle child of 5, is homeless in Daytona Beach and there are no shelters there except for drug addicts or people who are working. My grandson is turning 18, so she can get no medical to address her severe osteoporosis and subsequent osteoarthritis in all her joints. She was working but lost her job due to her inability to work faster. They became homeless today. The text she sent to me, the last one she said she would send, she feels like a faceless person and is tired. Tired means suicide with her. I am on SSD so I have no money to help. The whole family has tried to help her and will no longer. She is just unable to help herself. I have to brace myself for the inevitable. She was born angry and it never has stopped. I tried to get her to go to counseling but flat out refused when she was in high school. I just have to get this out to keep myself from falling apart. I am on meds for my psychiatric problems but know nothing will help when I get the news. If I even get notified. I am going to my new doctor Monday. Trazodone runs out before then, so withdrawals will be making me even weaker. But I have made it through so much from childhood on and I am not going to let this destroy me. I am determined to live the rest of my life LIVING! Jocette, my youngest, does not want me to give them money. She wants me to be able to do whatever I want to do instead of dreaming about it. To live, which is something I have not done since I can't remember. That is my goal now.
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