My life, my struggles.............

Anxiety takes over so much at times. I am having a struggling day, funny thing is I really don't have a reason to be. I hate that I cant shake it off. Is it because of my past? Or just that I am wound person naturally? I really don't know. One day I would just love to be relaxed and without a care in the world. I spend so much thinking about everyone else feelings and needs that mine get unnoticed. I wish I could just run away and have a relaxing day. I guess that's part of being a mother and someone who cares to try to keep things in order. I don't know. I feel like sometimes I just create my own stresses. Why cant I just ignore it for one day? Whatever it may be.......
I guess when I am older I can have a relaxing moment or two.