My life now.

After being away from here it has been a roller coaster. I still deal with the same drama but trying to take it all out of my life. Its been hard raising childs semi on your own and nothing that this year I would of had 1 child in highschool and 2 children in Jr high. Where has the time gone. Relationships has came and gone and struggling with one right now. I feel like a yo yo at times that I can't even take it. I do so much for people that now it seems that they always depend on me to help them. When I do it doesn't even stay that way and don't even care.
I am watching a neighbor after losing his wife going through his house. She was a hoarder. I feel bad for him and he is trying to make a living on selling things. Well you can't sell things if your prices are high.
Its been hard dealing with a lot of problems. I have been the back board for awhile and now I"m turning into the weak one.
I"m at a point that I rather not go out anymore and not see anyone. I miss my friends but knowing that I'm hurting they don't need to see me this way. I can say that I have one good friend that will always help me through it.
Going back to school is a biggest challenge for me. Some of the things has been hard while some subjects has been rough. Not having the support there hurts. I do have some support but times its I don't want to do this anymore.
Tired to a point that my mind is heading back to square one. I will only be happy with my children. Things are such a mess that I don't want to deal with it anymore.
Living a life of being alone is what I"m facing. I rather sit here and enjoy my quiet time typing in here (which I haven't done in a while) or a few other things. I figure I guess I would start back in here to help me cope with the depression and all the anger that I have towards people.
Since its getting late going to enjoy the rest of my night and hope it gets better somewhere down the road.