My life now

Today is Tuesday 26th January 2010 and this is my first journal entry since I first became ill back in may 2007. I have gone through an awful lot since then, feels like I've been to hell and back, I have been on many cocktails of medication to help with my condition, Syringomellia, I also have nearve damage and from my waist down I have very little feeling. from my knees down I have constant pain and my feet feel like blocks of ice all the time and are very painful to walk on. sleeping was one of my main concerns as I never slept very well, if at all, I now have two types of meds to help with sleeping, thank God, and a good bed, very important. I do feel I have a balance at present and can deal with the pain as it is the norm now what the future holds I've no idea but I'm hoping always as technowledgy changes all the time. I find it hard at times to remember, memory isn't that good. and I feel it is very hard to motivate myself and get going. thats the part I find very difficult and frustrating and if anyone has any ideas i would be greatful. hope to hear from some of you soon. Hayden