my journey this far in life

So im writing this so that yall may know a little about me . Im 27 years old , no kids, and i have been married for 2 years ... a few years ago i was diagnosed with lupus, that diagnosis has now turned into lupus, fibro myalgia, anemia,adrenal insufficiency,  putuitary tumor,adema,rls, and PTSD. Ive been hospitalized several times and almost died twice..... i also lost my cousin to suicide she was 24 years old, growing up we did everything together and she was just a really amazing young woman,  the stress from that i believe is what shut my adrenal glands down.... i will miss her forever and she will never be forgotten  ..........but im doing much better now.  However October 11,2014 will have forever changed my life . My best friends name was Holly Combs she was the greatest bestfriend anyone could ask for. At this time she was living in lubbock and had drove to amarillo with her husband to suprise me at work .. it was my first week back after being hospitalized... that day i had talked to her for a good 2 hrs prior, we just talked about eeverything.  When she showed up at my work i was so excited, you have to i understand that we were like sisters ... i wont go into detail but a few hours after she had gotten there  her husband started to get mad for no reason well he ended up stabbing her to death right in front of me. The only thing that gives me some peace is that my face was the last one she saw as he 
ran away... ill never forget the terrified look in her eyes. But this is why i joined this page , i am having a terrible time dealing with all of this and im looking for supportive people that understand