My heart skips
Sorry It's been a bit since I signed on. I've been dealing with a new disease, as if being mentally ill isn't enough. I am a recovering cutter, most of you know. I have been clean for twenty one years. Not a single cut.THen I find out I am a diabetic type one. Testing causes me to bleed, and cut, and giving myself shots reminds me of it all. It's so difficult to deal with, and I am having a very difficult time with it. Not only does the diabeties cause depression for me, it is increasing my anxiety when I see sugar levels up to five hundred. Untill I can get it under control there is nothing I can do but to follow the instructions. I feel like a failure in my recovery as a cutter, because I am forced to. At the same time I know it's not true because I have to do it to save my life. I must do what I must to survive. I will do whatever it takes. MY best to you all again my apologies if I am delayed in my writings. It's just been a nightmare with Sandy and dealing with it. I am from JErsey. My sister's house was hit. I was fine. But Scared alone, and the shore the lovely boardwalk is gone. This is my home. WHen I learned what had happened the following day I put limits on television and pc use. They taught us in thearpy not to feed into our fears by watching and participating in it. So I will write again and get back to you guys as soon as I can get some sleep.
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You have been through SO much and you survived, and now this is thrown at you. I believe in you for what you made it through shows how strong you are.
That Sandy storm must have been awful, am sorry you and your sister had to go through that.
I hope that you can find a strength to keep on and have people around you that may help
HUGS