my havent been on here in like forever post

hi all!!
havent written for ages.
my life has been a pile of shit!
lets see, went manic and lost two jobs and an apt.  HOw does this happen, you ask?  well i took on too much.  i was juggling a state job where i took care of homeless babies and my job at cracker barrel had decided to move from dads house and into my own apt.
whammo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    it hit!  a major episode.  well, i went to work one morning and wierded out.  i mean i didnt really know where i was or who i was but all of a sudden i couldnt deal and drove off the lot.  i left the kids.  there was a teacher though on the lawn so i didnt leave them alone.  and then i drove to dads house not really sure how i got there and he was FURIOUS  with me.  he called me a dumb asshole and called the cops when i wouldnt leave.  so this ended with me in the hosp and my job being given to someone else.  (theyput me onleave but i didnt get out in time and i lost my job)
Then to ice the cake and make things 20 times worse i put my self back in the hosp after feeling really depressed about leaving my job.  i ended up feeling too comfortable there.  the idea was for me to move into a residential facility that would have ppl like me (with bp) and staff to help.  well i FORGOT  i had an apt can you imagine this?  then, i haphazardly forgot to call cracker barrel over thanks giving.  as a result i had three no calls no shows and bam!  i lost that job too!
so life not so good at the moment.  i did get into residential but its shit.  my roomate is 32 year old sue who is anorexic and there for pure anti social she has a friend who is gay and comes over every day to cause problems. 
i am eagerly trying to find work so that i can move.  i have a 1800 debt on my record now because i broke the lease to my apt so wont be easy to land another.  i need to give up my pontiac vibe so that i can save money.  in fact my social worker and case manager want me to declare bank rupcy.  i dont have that much debt. 
so here i sit.  descisions.  what do i do?  my life is shit!  i went from being in shock to being ready to deal .  it took some time but im ready to get it all back. 
one day at a time..
so, how are ya'all
i hope better than me.

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I am so sorry