My habits have changed.....

One thing I have noticed that I hate about myself now is that I'm so sensitive. I cry at watching commercials. I don't leave my house anymore. People used to call me Happy Feet because I was always off on some adventure. I used to love reading, however my attention span is about 5 min now. I gave my two beautiful cats to my mom a year ago because I was such a mess and wasn't taking care of them and now that I'm a little better and miss them, she refuses to give them back! lol she is attached so I accept it. I used to love watching Cheaters, now I can't stand that show. And any movie that has infidelity involved makes me break down in tears, and its only a movie! I was the best cook too! Now I have a half a gallon of milk and 1 egg in the fridge. I don't smile anymore or when I do, you can see it's forced. I pray I will be that glowing happy adventurous and humorous person I once was. Just venting. I do okay as long as I don't have dreams about the past.....My goal here is to keep venting and to talk to others especially new ones where the pain is fresh because I noticed helping others feel good makes me feel wonderful, it's medicinal for me.