My gift

I swallow down the pillssay fuck it for today Been so tied downIts time to fly awayFeel them kicking in and my body's getting light One less stupid day that I have to fucking fightIts my releaseI need it now and thenBut why cant I release Without taking pills againI need to find a wayTo make me feel the sameMake my heart beat slowerMake me fly awaywithout the fucking drugsThey are not saving meI have to do thatI have to live and bestronger deep insideI cant always hideBehind the damn drugs They will be the reason that I dieI often wonder why I have to live this lifeBut then I think of all of my dreamsKids and a wifeA beautiful homeNot being all aloneBeing seen as strong And perfect to my kidsAlmost perfect to my wifeall of these thingsMy family and friendsTHEY Save my lifeEven if I dont Know them all in real lifeI will place it as a bet that is the only time I getThe only life I have to liveCant live it with regrets I will make it through the darkness and the feudthat goes on deep inside This I promise youI know that you all careI see and feel you thereI thank you for your loveSupporting words and hugsYou all make me feel goodLike any human shouldYou make me feel invincibleInstead of invisibleYou make my life so brightfor this I hope to thank you rightI only hope to return the gift to you.