My Fucking Appointment!!
Hey guys!! This is a rant. Sorry, but it just has to be. I hope you are all doing okay, but I am pissed. That stupid bitch that I saw today didn't write me anything at all for pain. The only thing she ordered was hydrotherapy. Makes me hate the guts of my former pain doctor that quit writing my meds because of the bipolar. I wish now that I had never told him about it. Me and my stupid ass mouth!!!!! I was in a "righteous" period then though. I had to be perfectly righteous about everything in my life no matter what. Fucking idiot!! I just don't know what I am going to do now for pain. The only pain meds I have been having was/is only the few that we rake up and scrape up money to buy from a friend and she can't get rid of too many because her hubby needs them. Plus a very few that Jim has been getting when he gets a tooth pulled once a month. Have to take one and a half of those to get an hours or two worth of any kind of relief. Then for about 2-1/2-3 weeks outta the month, I have to hurt. Then I have to share with Jim what I do get and don't even know that he hurts half the time.........he just likes the hype of them. I feel so distraught. I am so tired of hurting. Anywho, I am sorry for this negative post, but I thank you guys for your love and support.
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