My First Post - My Life In A Nutshell
Well here is the basic gist of what has been going on in my life and why I am here. Now, let me start off with letting you know I HATE being the one who is offering help to everyone else but never gets help in return, as you may be able to tell from my interests, which is why I am here - get and give help.
So, since it is not easy for me to say I am going to make it short and sweet. a couple of years ago I went through I major depression. I don't remember much of the night it started, but apparently I was 'acting strange and then went blank'. my friend ended up taking me to A&E and basically I was zombified for a good month and a half. in this time I would not talk, eat or drink or anything. staring into space. I was unresponsive to anything but inside my head I was screaming. eventually, I came out of it. but i thought this was important before I tell you my latest year and a bit.
This is the short and sweet bit, December 10th 2013, my cat was put down. December 17th 2013, I was raped. 18th I moved in with my friend and her fiancé. I spent Christmas with my ex and none of them knew what had happened but I kept my mouth shut. Can't even remember new year. Moved into my new place, around the corner from my old place, at the end of January 2014. Met my boyfriend in March, got Burgled in April, Victim Support called me and, after hearing all of the information, told me they had never been contacted about my previous attack and they called twelve's company who also said they had never heard of me (the police said they would all contact me asap from December). so had 3 meetings with VS which helped and I am still waiting on Twelve's Company. Started having flash backs in October which mean't I could not even look at my boyfriend and although he tried to help, he made this worse. December just gone, I was planning to move with my ex (who is now one of my best friends) which has stirred HUGE arguments between me. him, and my boyfriend and here I am now.
Oh and last week I strained my tricep, possibly tore a tendon, at work who are making me feel so guilty and I have been signed off for weeks on end which means I am stuck at home with my thoughts.
so, there is my rant and my rave. take from it what you will but basically that is why i am here. i intend to give more details in forums etc because this would be like 10 times longer otherwise. thanks for reading x
So, since it is not easy for me to say I am going to make it short and sweet. a couple of years ago I went through I major depression. I don't remember much of the night it started, but apparently I was 'acting strange and then went blank'. my friend ended up taking me to A&E and basically I was zombified for a good month and a half. in this time I would not talk, eat or drink or anything. staring into space. I was unresponsive to anything but inside my head I was screaming. eventually, I came out of it. but i thought this was important before I tell you my latest year and a bit.
This is the short and sweet bit, December 10th 2013, my cat was put down. December 17th 2013, I was raped. 18th I moved in with my friend and her fiancé. I spent Christmas with my ex and none of them knew what had happened but I kept my mouth shut. Can't even remember new year. Moved into my new place, around the corner from my old place, at the end of January 2014. Met my boyfriend in March, got Burgled in April, Victim Support called me and, after hearing all of the information, told me they had never been contacted about my previous attack and they called twelve's company who also said they had never heard of me (the police said they would all contact me asap from December). so had 3 meetings with VS which helped and I am still waiting on Twelve's Company. Started having flash backs in October which mean't I could not even look at my boyfriend and although he tried to help, he made this worse. December just gone, I was planning to move with my ex (who is now one of my best friends) which has stirred HUGE arguments between me. him, and my boyfriend and here I am now.
Oh and last week I strained my tricep, possibly tore a tendon, at work who are making me feel so guilty and I have been signed off for weeks on end which means I am stuck at home with my thoughts.
so, there is my rant and my rave. take from it what you will but basically that is why i am here. i intend to give more details in forums etc because this would be like 10 times longer otherwise. thanks for reading x
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