My first post - depression
Over the last few months I have been dealing with a number of issues that have all seemed to have caught up with me at once. As a result of my past divorce I have lost my relationship with my 2 oldest boys. I try and keep up with them but their mom has poisoned them to the point that they despise me, unless they need money that is. MS is acting up and has been causing me some cognitive issues. I went to see a specialist and ran through some testing and the results sort of pushed me over the edge. I expressed my issues at work and my boss has been very difficult, so much that I had to have a discussion with HR.
So as a result here I am taking zoloft to help with depression each night, some sort of pill to help with anxiety during the day, Ambien to help me sleep, and now as a result I am back on steroid treatment due to numbness in my extremities. I see a therapist once a week, my medical doctor, neurologist, and now add a psychologist.
The sad thing is I am normally a happy person. I have a beautiful wife who means the world to me and I feel like I am letting her down. Adding my issues to her already full plate just doesn't seem fair.
Since this is my first post I don't know what to expect, but if your listening and have some experience in these issues I would appreciate a friendly hello and any advice you may have which is helping you at the moment or has helped in the past.
So as a result here I am taking zoloft to help with depression each night, some sort of pill to help with anxiety during the day, Ambien to help me sleep, and now as a result I am back on steroid treatment due to numbness in my extremities. I see a therapist once a week, my medical doctor, neurologist, and now add a psychologist.
The sad thing is I am normally a happy person. I have a beautiful wife who means the world to me and I feel like I am letting her down. Adding my issues to her already full plate just doesn't seem fair.
Since this is my first post I don't know what to expect, but if your listening and have some experience in these issues I would appreciate a friendly hello and any advice you may have which is helping you at the moment or has helped in the past.
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Another day behind me and I am still working on my issues. In discussions with my wife this morning it see,ms that Father\'s Day is a real trigger of sadness for me due to the estranged relationship I have with my older boys. My therapist recommended with all I have on my plate that I need to block something\'s out. Especially those that cause me the most pain. Hard to do but I will try.
I hope that all here on ds have a better day
Hang in there. If it\'s any consolation, I have had to \"drop\" friends and family members as well that sent my stress and anxiety levels over the edge. I have 2 boys myself, and cannot imagine the pain you feel, but once you just let go (because you are in no way in control of the relationship with them or anyone else), peace will come to you.
Amy
I can feel what your going through. I have a Granddaughter that I don\'t see much because of the poison issue, I can only block it out because my heart breaks in two. I am so sorry about your Sons, it must hurt. Just remember everything comes back around they will never forget about their Dad. I have ms and have been walking around crying for days, said to have something to do with where my lesions are. Doesn\'t make me feel any better. Makes me depressed all the more. Hang in there and be strong (i know it\'s hard) but we have no other choice. It will pass and get better. Hugs for you Dad. DS is a great place to be.
Thanks for all the kind words and support. :)