my first day of the new year

well i did nothing today, but sleep, and cry, i was home alone , hubby at work, baby jessi, who is 10 at a sleepover, i wanted to do alot of housecleaning since i was alone, but i was very tired, jess has been out of school for 2 weeks and doesn't start back until next monday, she is a very active girl, if she is not singing and dancing, then she is practicing her clarinet, or her electric guitar,and i am proud she wants to practice but when she is not doing all of that she is talking, and asking questions, so not a moment of peace, so i guess the house was so quiet i just caught up on my sleep, the crying comes from loss of family member , my favorite aunt, and then 2 uncles ,one on his last leg, and one in the hospital with pnuemonia, and my dad has also been sick, and i really would just like to crawl in a hole, and stay there, but i know that i have to keep going on for the sake of my jess, and my hubby, i hope that the new year will bring about less depression, less anxiety, and less pain, i pray that it does, well whining is over, love to all my friends, old and new.