My first day

This is my first day of reaching out and hoping someone is listening.  I have had a severe gambling addiction for over three years now and I am afraid that I am losing myself in this.  I have lied to my spouse, spent money I needed for my children's diapers, food and formula.  I use to think that I had good intentions and that was enough.  Now I see that I have become someone I never wanted to be.  
I spent most of my life seeing my family members struggle with money and lie to one another.  As much as I hated to see this, I realized that I learned how to be this way and can't seem to find another alternative.
This is a cry for help to see if there is anyone else out there that I can talk to.  My husband struggles with an alcohol addiction, and for that reason, he doesn't make me accountable for my gambling.  If he asked me to stop, he feels that he would have to quit drinking.  We are a very disfunctional match and I have no support elsewhere.  My parents are both gamblers and see nothing wrong with it.  
I pray that someone reads this and can reach out to me.
Dani