My Feelings Don\'t Count Worth a DAMN to Him !!!!!

I don't know why I bother anymore ! Tonight I cooked a NICE Dinner for " US ", and thought that We'd have a Nice Quiet Evening Together. I thought all of this since MOST of the DAY was going OKAY. Other than a few minor squabbles, We were getting along GREAT Today ! He seemed to be in a really Good Mood, do I figured that would mean We'd have a Nice Quiet Night ! WRONG !!!!!! It ONLY took ONE SMALL THING to FLIP THE SWITCH ON HIS RAGE !!!!! THE DISHWASHER !!!! Why that You may ask ? Well, He always says that IF it's running while He's home it gives Him a Migraine Headache. I already knew this, but while He was OUT - while I was cooking Dinner - I thought I'd do a " NICE THING ", and run the Dishwasher since it was pretty full.The only Problem with this is that I didn't start it SOON ENOUGH ! Because by the Time Dinner was Ready, and I called Him on His Cell Phone to let Him know that, the Dishwasher was only about HALFWAY through it's Cycle !!!! IF I hadn't thought it would have just ENRAGED HIM MORE, I would have forceably stopped the Dishwasher halfway through the Cycle - AT LEAST WHILE WE ATE DINNER - and then He could have maybe gone for another Walk AFTER DINNER ! BUT... I didn't even get as far as suggesting that !AS SOON AS HE WALKED THROUGH THE DOOR... AND NOTICED THAT THE DISHWASHER WAS ON... His Initial Friendly Look on His Face VANISHED in an INSTANT... and He started STORMING AROUND, gathering up His things AGAIN, and headed for the Door !He said that I RUINED OUR EVENING ! AND NOW HE'S NOT HUNGRY, AND IS NOT GOING TO EAT ! AND TO CALL HIM WHEN THE DISHWASHER WAS DONE !... ONLY THEN WILL HE COME HOME !I started sobbing hard, and I begged Him to NOT GO ! I told Him that the Dishwasher would be in the DRYING MODE SOON ! BUT He didn't want to hear it ! He said it DIDN'T MATTER, AND HE DEFINITELY WASN'T GOING TO EAT ANY OF WHAT I COOKED ! It's NOT EASY for Me to cook.... since I have VERY BAD KNEES ! I use a chair that I keep in the Kitchen to sit on while I'm cooking, BUT STILL as anyone knows You would STILL have to do some standing ! I'm NOT a Gourmet Cook by any means, BUT I still made a VERY NICE dinner of Porkchops, and White Rice. Both things were just out of the Oven, and still Warm, BUT SINCE HE FLEW INTO A RAGING FIT AND INSISTED ON WALKING OUT THE DOOR FOR ANOTHER WALK... all I could think of was that ALL MY HARD WORK was FOR NOTHING !!!!!! I told Him as He was heading for the Door that the Food would go COLD ! HE SAID HE DIDN'T GIVE A DAMN, SINCE I RUINED THE NIGHT WE COULD HAVE HAD TOGETHER !!!!! I just sat at the Dinning Room Table CRYING MY EYES OUT while He was gone. I sat there CRYING, and WAITING for the Dishwasher to FINISH so I could unload it BEFORE He got back !! I DEFINITELY DID NOT NEED HIM CALLING ME " LAZY ", OR SOMETHING, IF HE SAW THAT I HADN'T UNLOADED IT YET !!!! I was VERY HUNGRY, but as UPSET as I was I couldn't eat until I FINALLY CONVINCED Him to come back Home AFTER LEAVING TWO PLEADING MESSAGES ON HIS CELL PHONE'S VOICE MAIL !!!!! When He FIRST got back, He didn't say a Word, and stormed into the Bedroom... closing the Bedroom Door behind Him ! I waited silently at the Dinning Room Table for Him to finish whatever He was doing.When He did finally come out He told Me to " FIX YOUR OWN PLATE ", because HE WASN'T GOING TO EAT ! So I did that, fixed a Soda for Myself, and while My Dinner was in the Microwave warming up, I had to go into the bathroom for a moment. WHILE I was in the bathroom, I could overhear Him BANGING AROUND LOUDLY in the KITCHEN ! He sounded as if He was PURPOSELY BANGING EVERYTHING HE COULD SET HIS HANDS ON.... cupboard doors, plates, cups taken out of the cupboard, microwave door, etc... I guess He definitely wanted Me to know He was STILL IN A RAGE ! When I came out, I was kind of shocked. He ACTUALLY took My Dinner OUT of the Microwave, and put IT, and My Soda, by My Recliner Chair ! That was a SHOCK since I figured He was still in a full-blown RAGE at ME ! Anyways... Once one of His Favorite TV Shows started, I THOUGHT that the Night would get BETTER from here on out ! That's what I ASSUMED AT LEAST !UNFORTUNATELY, I WAS WRONG !!!!The Show on TV was American Gladiators.It was even the Final Show, BUT since Someone that HE DID NOT LIKE was doing WELL in it, HIS RAGE STARTED COMING BACK FULL-FORCE !He suddenly turned the TV OFF... THREW THE TV REMOTE ACROSS THE ROOM... WALKED OVER TO THE COMPUTER... TURNED IT ON... GRABBED MY COMPUTER CHAIR FROM THE DINNING ROOM TABLE... AND PUSHED IT HARD - SLAMMING IT INTO THE SIDE OF MY RECLINER CHAIR.... AND CAME UP TO ME... ONLY A COUPLE OF FEET FROM MY FACE.... THREATENING TO HIT ME WITH HIS FIST !!!!WHILE HOLDING HIS FIST UP LIKE HE WAS GOING TO HIT ME HE SAID... " GET UP, AND GET OVER THERE NOW... MOVE IT !!!! MOVE IT LAZY ! ".... As soon as I started to get up, and move a TINY BIT towards the Computer HE SAID, STILL THREATING ME WITH HIS FIST... " BUT FIRST GET YOUR BUTT OVER TO THE KITCHEN, AND CLEAN UP THE DISHES ! YOU LAZY BIT*H ! MOVE IT NOW ! "All I could do was say... " YES.. YES.. YES... I'M MOVING.. I'M MOVING.. "... AND I ADDED.. " I WAS PLANNING ON DOING THAT ANYWAY. ".... BUT I guess saying that didn't matter at all to Him since that was about when He called Me " LAZY " !!!!AFTER all of that... THANK GOD... He STORMED OFF TO THE BEDROOM, AND SLAMMED THE BEDROOM DOOR !!!! GOOD RIDDENS !!!! Was about all I could think of, since I DID NOT want Him ANYWHERE NEAR ME while He was STILL RAGING like He was !!!!! The Way He threatened to HIT ME scared Me SO MUCH that My Heart MUST have been beating about a MILLION MILES A MINUTE !!!! I'M SO SICK OF THIS ! ALL OF THIS WAS OVER THE " DISHWASHER " OF ALL THINGS !!!! THE DISHWASHER !!!!! HOW NUTS IS THAT ?????