My Feelings

Please do not take my comments personal...they are just what I am feeling today.  It's been a heavy week, with a new Memorial for Ken.  It was simply much more over powering then my husband or I imagained...I am sad,,,,I am in pain,,,,I feel alone...
It was a beautiful beautiful ceremory our church had for my son.  I just didn't know it would hurt so bad one day before his 6 months in Heaven...I can't imagine not talking to him,,,touching him, holding his hand, hearing his voice.  It's seems it's been a while now since I had a good cry...Maybe that is what I am needing.  I don't want to go forward right now, my pain is feeling so fresh again.  So if I have my Pity Party let me feel the pain.
I love my son so much as I know all of you did to (love you child).  My life feels so empty right now...and I feel so alone again.  I have no one i feel I can turn to, no one to talk to.  The thing about our pain is our family and friends sorta get tired of hearing it over and over again, yet no matter how busy you get, no matter how involved you are, no matter what you are doing,,,,if you stop and think they are always there in your mind, in your being....Our children is an extension of our heart and the day they went to Heaven a piece of our Heart went too>>>>>>
Sandi