my fault

I’m told to be happy If not then pretendIt’ll get people off our backsAnd out of our business  It’s not my mom that says thisAnd definitely not my dadIt’s the voice inside my head That says it’s all my fault  I caused the family painAnd I made everyone fightIt’s my fault everyone hurtsI should’ve shut my mouth  All that changed when I told Wasn’t worth the fearMom believed and that was goodBut everyone now defends him  He was just a kid they sayHe didn’t know it was wrongHe didn’t mean to hurt you He’s sorry for what he’s done  They all say he’s sorry But with him you couldn’t tellHe smiles and laughs all day I wish I could again  I miss the feelings of true joyThe smiles, the laughs, the funThey all tell me to forgiveAnd to forget it all  But I can’t forgive him for thisIt haunts me night and dayI have a cloud inside of meBecause of what he did  There is a whole in my heartFor the one that I lostThe baby didn’t deserve to dieIt was all my fault I should’ve cared for my bodyAnd for the one insideI knew the baby was in meAnd it’s my fault that it died