My dear journal,

Guess what? I didn't win but my best friend( say, p) did. I didn't feel bad at all. However, I realized that p did not follow the rules and should've been disqualified but she didn't. I know I shouldn't feel bad but I do. My another best friend ( say, d) said to me that it was okay. d said it multiple times but at that time I didn't feel sad so I thought she was just blabbering stuff because she thought I was upset. Then, her words made me think that I should've been upset.

Now, I am upset.