My daughters story

It has been almost 4 years since I have found out about what my Ex Husband was doing to my daughter. He is now sitting in prision for the rest of his life. But that does not take the pain away from daughter. I left him when I was 4 months pregnant because I couldnt take it anymore, he was controlling and cheating. And he was just awful mean. I fought him in court every step of the way but as a father he had rights. He got her every other weekend. Sometimes he wouldnt show up at all. He wasnt allowed to take her out of the house until she was 12-15 months old. My daugther would come home extremely angry and I use to think it was because she didnt see him enough. I never trusted him, so I would check my daugther up and down when she got home and I never seen anything. At 3 years old, I got a call from my ex's sister inlaw asking if I heard that my ex was being arrested for being in a relationship with a 13 year old girl. He was 28yrs old. I had no idea. At this point I also found out that he was also charged with a criminal sexual conduct for touching is 15 year old cousin! At this point I was devastated. And I brought my daughter to the doctor asap to have her checked. They found no signs. But still had to turn it in to CPS. After getting this started my 3 year old daughter starting talking. She told me everything he did to her I was crushed. He tortured her for his own pleasure. But with no proof it was just the word of my daughter. And CPS interviewed her and asked the questions and she anwered them honestly. But they were all about me and what happens at my house. NOT him or his house! and then they told me they were sorry and closed the file. I was furious, and was told if I wasnt happy i needed to get a 3rd party involved. So I got my daughter into a therapist. The therapist came to my house and talked with me and my daughter and she immediately diagnosed my daughter with PTSD and turned it back into CPS. And thats when everything happend. While my CPS lady was investigating she was contacted by local authorities. She called me one day and told me that her and the sheriff were going to come and give me and update. They showed up to my house and introduced themself. Telling me they were actually The FBI and needed to talk to me. That was the day everything changed. I found out that my ex had been molesting my daughter from 18 months to 3years old. And he had been taking photo and video and sending it to other ppl in different states. I had to identify my lil girl in pictures. How could her own FATHER do this?? WHY didnt anyone believe us?? It took 3 years of many court dates and interviews but my ex was finally charged 50 years in fedreal and 200 years in the state. But that doesnt help her. She is 7 years old now. And she still remembers everything. Shes so angry and I dont know how to help her. She doesnt like to talk about it and I not to push her too much. But now I am starting to see that if she doesnt talk it makes it so much worse for her. I tell her over and over again its not her fault and she tells me she knows it is his fault. But then other times she will say I should of stopped him, I should of told him no. She says she has nightmares of him coming back to find her. He always woke her up at night to hurt her so she has a hard time sleeping now. She says he is the monster in her dreams. She trys so hard to be strong and I think she does it to protect me from being sad. I want to be the one to protect her. I blame myself so much for this and then i see her suffer everyday and it eats at me. But she always tells me its not my fault and that its okay. She had to grow up way to fast and she handles it so much better than me. He gave my daughter a life senences and I made sure I fought to give him one too.